Sep 30, 2011

Put one foot in front of the other ~ AND GO.

melli@melliinc.com


Dear World -


A zebra is an exact balance of black and of white, yin and yang, of plus and minus, fire water etc.  Perfection.  If I am good at something, I'm the best at it.  And if I'm not, I'm the worst.  I don't pretend to do things, though I've said "fake it till you make it".   If said "it" is something completely foreign, then that "it" for me isn't an option.  I don't fake the know-how...maybe just the experience or rather the confidence I have in the doing of a task.    If I agree/accept a gig,job,offer, it's because on some level, I know I can kick it's ass...in the very best and most gracious of ways.
Fake It Till You Make It-
“Meticulous manipulation of the mind,
 in order to properly complete a task, that
 one already has the inherent ability to master”.
Melli Clarification 

Right now,  I'm so grateful the ever so gifted for Kevyn Aucoin.  Despite the classes I've taken in design, color, costume, make-up, theatrical effects etc etc etc... His book "Making Faces"has taught me more than any of them.   It's also helped me elaborate my own thoughts and methodology in refining the gifts that I've naturally been given.   So, I'm not panicking.   Well, ok maybe a little.
I'm doing the make-up for a video shoot tomorrow.   A "Sizzle~Reel".    Until yesterday I was the "assistant" to the "professional" artist, who has since, backed out.  While my heart is now beating out of my chest...if indeed it still is beating, the only way to move forward is to actually put one foot in front of the other ~ AND GO.  So I'm going.  I'm going to Los Alamos, I'm going to do the make-up for the film.  I'm going to rock it.  And of course I'll be doing it in Pearls.  
 I'm absolutely bringing my books from  Mr. Aucoin.  To be a legend is wonderfully bittersweet.  He was taken from the world at such a young age...and yet even in death, is teaching so very much.  Not just that, but he is also guiding me  through,  reminding me of all the things I did learn,  do know, can do ... and giving me ~ again ~  the confidence to move ahead in doing them.    How inspiring he is to me alone, without even being here.  Now THAT is magic if I've ever seen.  
So yes, I'm nervous, but that's not a bad thing really.  It's energy building...and energy can be positive.  It can bring smiles to peoples faces, and it can turn a hum~drum day into the best you've ever had.  Terrified?  Ok, a little...but I'm human.  If I couldn't do this I wouldn't try.  But I can... so I will.
Anyway, my forever motto is worded a little different every time I say it,  however...
"On the inside, have passion enough 
to rival the wildest of any storm.  
On the outside though ~ forever do your best,
to instead resemble (ALWAYS) 
the calm just before."
Quite Kindly,
 Melli D.





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