May 16, 2012

Twitter:ohmymelli





Am I ‘eccentric”?  Maybe.  Do I get points for admitting it?  Yes.
Everyday, after school, I’d look up into the sky ~ and plead for stupidity to reign down on me, for ignorance to take over my mind, and for shallow, lackluster  emotion, to encompass my very being.  Please.  I beg you ~ help me be a dumb ass. 
Despite being able to always, (indeed I do mean ALL WAYS, ALWAYS, and IN EVERY WHICH WAY POSSIBLE), figure out how get exactly what I (or another) wanted or needed, the whole, being a crack head, wasn’t something I could manifest.   I’m not a stupid idiot.  Unfortunately, my demise is my kind heartedness.
The me that lures the world into my arms, is the me I’d run far away from at a moments notice.  
“Compassion is stellar in it’s frantic, yet seductive, creation of pain”.