Struggles of Spring//Adoration of Angela//Joy for Jen//Tickled Pink by PAULEY PERRETTE!!!

                I know this sounds crazy, but I am NOT a fan of the spring time.   Here's why.   We bounce our cheerful selves into early summer...we then softly flit about into later summer...then  gracefully fall into autumn...and as the leaves gracefully fall from tree branches, we can settle ourselves into the "dead" of winter...in more hushed tones, with more dark than light, and the world seems to spin much less rapidly.   All of this is " a process"...the natural progression of the circle of life........   Then...BOOM!!!!   It's SPRING!   Wake it on up people we are back in business, back in motion...AWARDS season...FLOWERS blooming...SCHOOL is almost out...SUMMER plans are being made...ACCEPTANCE letters begin to arrive...and HELLO we go from dead to alive over frigging night! So, not a fan of the Spring...   Although all things are beautiful, we are all living breathing beings, animals, plants, the earth...etc etc etc...it's all very beautiful I know this...but wow it's just that BOOM into spring that frankly, bounces the springs right outta my steps!   Now I MUST say VERY clearly, a lot of my family have their birthdays in the spring, and for them, I'll always celebrate.  :)  
               THAT all being said, I have to tell you about this past spring.  
               After selling anything I could to get myself to a very promising awards show in December, I came home excited with  opportunities that presented themselves.   I was still unsteady on my feet ( due to a VERY bad car accident earlier in the year)... and very concerned with the completion of the piece's themselves, but still being myself, I was confident.   (Since then I've re-done every single design I had...trust me, it was a need not a want.)   I met some GOOD people, friends and "talent".   I had faith in the people that were supposedly looking out for me...however I was just too naive to realize that I was in a sense, being played...Like a guitar.   Strummed until my strings broke.   By SO many people...both before, during and after that event.   As excitement crept into frustration, I became increasingly aware none of these "things" would pan out.  I was  insanely disappointed...and became actually depressed...I don't get depressed.   I have bad days...as do we all, but depression isn't me.   I'm Melli...I bounce.  

                 Throughout this time, a dear friend (Jen), had introduced me to her dear friend ( Angela).   These two girls are dear people, and both have a special place in my heart...for so so so many reasons.   Anyway, one of them mentioned she had a friend that might be able to put a Melli on TV.   Um...pardon me???   WHAT???!!!!!!!   " I can't be certain, but it MIGHT (maybe maybe maybe) be doable."   Um...WHAT???!!!!!!   So I sent a piece to my friend in South Carolina...who then sent it back here to her friend in Los Angeles.   And it just so happened, that my favorite character on TV, is the one they'd given it too.   Well Holy smoke stacks this is so awesome!   At one point, Angela went to visit the set, and when she posted pictures on Facebook, I noticed she herself, was wearing a piece she'd bought from me!!!   On set!!!   How cool!!!   So then, she and Jen got a little ...well...odd!   Hemming and hawing about the where-abouts of the piece I'd sent...and then one day I got a photograph...

Pauley Perrette as  "Abigail Sciuto" on NCIS.

My FAVORITE show on TV... and my favorite character wearing the piece.   My design...my first ever Melli on TV...BUT there's more...not only did she wear it on the show...she wore it on the TWO-PART season finale!   Holy smoke stacks!!!   So, she's got it on in two episodes.   AND obviously I paid for the materials...but do you know what people charge to get stuff like this done?   MY HEAVENS you'd be shocked!   It's ridiculous...but hey you make money where you can right?   WRONG, neither Angela, Jen, Pauley, or the studio charged me one single cent.   This was done for me out of the goodness of somebody else's heart.   

                  I've been in such a rotten mood...and this year has been one of MANY BIG changes...but I wanted to take the proper time to explain my struggle with the spring...so that I could properly express my sheer EXCITEMENT and APPRECIATION to Angela, Jen, and Miss Pauley P as well...for really, doing something that wasn't a big deal for them...but ended up making my pain go away.    They surprised me as to when it would be on...and seriously...I was doing cartwheels across my den...SERIOUSLY...I was.   :)   THANK YOU to three very special, very generous, and very good people.   

Me Today ;)

"If in that moment it seemed like a good idea...well, then in that moment...it probably was. ;)"
           "Faith keeps us sane, love does the opposite.   Rock N' Roll does in fact heal the soul, good friends help you move on...and laughter makes everything better."  ;)   It's downright impossible to get up and move on some days...not get up out of bed...   It's the same feeling we all have of simply being overwhelmed.    There is a GIANT boulder that most of us come head to well... maybe head to ankle with because it's so huge...and we just cannot get it out of the way.   An obstacle.   Some of us punch with all our might, some cry and get it to feel sad for us, some of us try to logically talk it into moving...and then there's people like me...well, yes I punch...I cry...I reason with "it"...and then eventually, I'll get my ass up and climb over the damn thing if none of the above works.  
           So often people have said "you should do voice over" and I did study it.   I made a wretched demo cd...knew the second I woke up that morning it wasn't a good day for it.   I did it anyways though, and sent it to anywhere I could find...then started saving up to make a new one.   Took classes for commercial V/O from Nancy Wolfson...then was directed to Richard Horvitz for character voice...can't remember the proper name...memory is still shifty.   I've studied it...I've read to kids my whole life...and my voice is actually quite distinctive.   Regularly people want to "talk" via phone...it's a little creepy...and it's a little cool.   I've decided to continue with my design dreams...because no matter what I do, I am at heart, an artist...however, in the thirteen months I've officially been Studio Melli D Inc. it's been a very slow go....so then, I'm going to poke around my friends and see if I can't find myself some voice work.   Which brings me way into my next post.   Meeting Pauley Perrette.    VERY cool!   I'll be back for that...think I'll end this one here...
Adventure
Baffled
Charmed...I'm CERTAIN
Dainty
Encouragement
Famous
Giant heart
Holy smoke stacks!
It's never out of the realm of possibilities
Just go for it...
Keeps
Lover
Melli Oh My!
Not a chance it won't happen...it absolutely will.  ;)
Oh for goodness sakes!
Precious
Quite ravishing
Raw
Sultry sounds...or Squeaky ones...
Tenacious
Undying passion
Vicious
Wild
X maybe it does...maybe it doesn't...
You know you do...
Zephyr

Anonymous Love Poem...Really Really Old...So Precious Though!

My heart starts to hurt

As day turns to night

When dusk steps inside

My wishes take flight.

 

All Angels please hear

Please grant me this wish

This blessing I ask

My lips against his.

 

My body aches so

For his soft and sweet touch

The truth is so easy

I love him so much.

 

Keep his heart strong

And a smile on his face

Always good things

For him take place.

 

My heart is his

My soul partly too

My wish is he love me

As all best friends do.

 

Healthy and strong

Happy with love

Successful and calm

Watched from above.

 

If you love me back

I won't tell ever

My own secret wish?

To be yours forever.

 

Your Kiss...My Bliss ;)

Simply a smile...simply a kiss...something so simple...instant bliss.
      I don't know why this happens...or how it does.   I can only tell you that it's ultimately more meaningful than anything else in the world.   And for even a short while, reality slips away, and your suddenly floating on a cloud.   How many times have you kissed somebody?   They kiss back...maybe...or maybe they do sorta...the way you would if you felt you should, or you had to.   But then when somebody kisses you first?   Doesn't it make your whole heart just soar?   It's so simple, yet it brings on so much happiness...one of those things that just makes your face light up and gives you that ridiculous grin that no matter what happens, you cannot wipe off your face.   It just sits there...   Not because your ( or I'm) selfish...or un-realistic, but because in that moment, you know that truly, you are the only thing that matters to him ( or her).   So often it's better than anything...even sex...sex is sex and love is love...but being kissed honestly kissed with meaning...is just so much better than anything.   So I'm a romantic...not though a hopeless one...Well, I hope not a hopeless one...in fact I'd like to think that there's more hope now than there ever was.   Oh!   And when he's leaving ( ok or she) and spontaneously returns TO DO IT AGAIN??!!!!!   Forget it...forget being a sane person for the rest of the day...or even week...   Although the next day when you wake up, and realize that this wish you've wished for so long, and literally cried over on so many nights, actually came true YESTERDAY...well, it's hard...but no matter what, those moments of pure perfection, and the moments of perfection with the most precious of people, will ALWAYS be yours to cherish.   A kiss is a kiss...but when ______ is behind it...wow.


ALWAYS/ALL DAYS/ ALL WAYS
BRACE YOURSELF
CAN ALWAYS BE
DESTINY...OK THAT'S A LITTLE DRAMATIC
ELATION
FLIRT...FANTASY...FLIPPING OUT...IN A VERY GOOD WAY!!!
GO ON...DO IT AGAIN...YOU KNOW YOU WANT TOO...I THINK.
HOLD ON TIGHT...
I LOVE______
JUST ONCE MORE...OR ONCE MORE EVERY DAY...   :)
KEEP ME/KEEP YOU...TOGETHER TRUE/WITH THE REST OF THE WORLD...
LET ME HAVE A RE-DO...PRETTY PLEASE AND THANK YOU MUCH!
MELLI IS A MONDO GEEK...AND PROUD TO ADMIT IT.  ;)
NEVER EVER EVER STOP...PLEASE
OH MY HOLY SMOKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PAIN MIGHT COME LATER...BUT MIGHT NOT
QUITE...TRULY YOURS...KINDLY
ROCKSTAR/ YOU ARE / ROCK ME/ YOU DO
STOKED DOESN'T COME CLOSE
TOUCH...WANT YOURS
U MAKE ME SMILE
VERY VERY VERY MUCH
WISHES
X MARKS THE SPOT
YOU LOVE ME TOO...A LITTLE...I THINK
ZOOOOM...AWAY TO LALA LAND WITH ME  :)

The less I talk the more I have to say...

This cannot possibly be something that only happens to me...   The good news is I'm not (normally) a "phone person".    Text yes, phone no.   "Dance Ten - Looks Three"  ;)   So often though I find myself wishing I'd said something differently...or think of things I should have/could have/or wanted to but forgot too say...So, the more I try not to talk...the more reason I find I need too.   AND the ridiculous part is that I'm shy!   I blush!   If you don't make me, I'll slam my own foot in my mouth and do it myself.   Working on it though...really, truly I am.
Mellibet tonight...
Amazing (assanign doesn't seem to be very lady-like)  ;)
Busty...typical
Criminally precious
Down-right sexy!
Enchanting
Forget me?  You won't.
Give me your best shot...really!
How are you not totally freaking out?!
Images of you...
Just give me a second
Keep trying...you'll break...I think ;)
Lover
Melli...Oh My!
Non-stop adorable
Obnoxious ego
Possibly...Really?   That's what you've got?!   Um...no.
Quite stubborn
Rest assured...I've got your back if you've got mine.  ;)
Sweet like sugar.
Totally want ...
Ultra ego
Very true.
Winning?   Oh yes...we are.
X...yeah yeah yeah always Marks the Spot
Yowza!
Zoooooom in...and stay ;)
          Quite Kindly Yours, Mell

Take me away...to a secret place...where magic entwines with wind...
Where together we'll fly...over earth and sky...and clear away our sins...
Love me truly...as I do you... and gift me your spirit and body...
You've taken mine...I'll give you more...I'm yours,I'm here, I'm ready...
Forever I'm yours...I'll love you longer...My soul belongs to you...
My wish each night...with all my will...is that you'll love me too.

Once Upon Today

MeMo & Sha~
          How come the people that make us truly happy, mind body and soul, are the very same one's that in a heart-beat, can tear our waking world apart?   And in the next instant, they again have us floating on cloud nine???   It's completely irrational...and intoxicating...and of course ridiculous.   Anyway, it's now 2:45 in the morning...I'm loosing steam, but not because of the time.   It isn't impossible, as I've said, it's inevitable that I will be this person...the designer, whose successes out number her failures.   I'll be able to care for my family, and various causes around the globe...it's only a question of when.   The road is much smoother now than it looked before...but there's still one giant boulder.   I have to get over it or around it...who knows, maybe one day I'll just walk right up, and knock it to bits with a wildly intense punch!   You just never know...especially when we're talking about me.   ;)   To all my fellow dreamers...to the late designers that have left their respective print on society...and to all those that consume a piece of my heart...I'll get my tangled thoughts organized for tomorrow...as for now though, dream sweetly...and wildly at that.  ;)
Adventure
Ballsy
Convincing
Delicate
Enchanting
Forget me NOT
Grateful
Heaven Scent ( not smell )
Impatient
Just because
Keep me
Lover
Melli Oh My
Never mind...oh but please do...  ;)
Oh say it already!!!
Precious
Quite Kindly Yours
Reaction
Smitten
Tell me again
Undeniable
Very Very Very
With me...WIN
X...Marks the spot of course.
You love too
Zoooooom

          Angels-Angels, Melli